{"id":2901,"date":"2019-01-30T16:30:15","date_gmt":"2019-01-30T08:30:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/araopenpages.com\/?p=2901"},"modified":"2021-09-10T15:59:10","modified_gmt":"2021-09-10T07:59:10","slug":"the-case-of-the-imposter-syndrome","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/araopenpages.com\/?p=2901","title":{"rendered":";the case of the imposter syndrome"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"bookworm<\/p>\n

I’ve been meaning to talk more about fanfiction. Last month, I wrote about reading and writing fanfiction<\/a>. These points still stand, but there is a downside to my writing fanfiction.<\/p>\n

And my writing in general.<\/p>\n

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When I write fanfiction, it is usually because I have Very Strong Feelings about the treatment of a character, or a pairing, or a storyline in a show. It’s not necessarily an opinion that other people agree with, though thankfully I’ve never gotten any hate anywhere I’ve posted my stories, but it’s something that I have to write to get it out of my system.<\/p>\n

Once I write the story and post it somewhere, however, the pride I feel at accomplishing a completed story, short though it may be, diminishes until I’m left wondering what I was thinking and why I thought I wrote well.<\/p>\n

Imposter syndrome, you guys. It’s real.<\/p>\n

Lines I was SO PROUD OF and emotions I thought I was evoking with them become nothing more than “what is this, what did I do, I should delete everything and never write again”.<\/p>\n

Which is why I tweeted for people who have read my fic to send me lines they think I should be proud of.<\/p>\n

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If anyone who has read my fanfic wants to send me lines they think I should include in this post (and don't mind me crediting you for enjoying them?), please do. Because I am cringing over my own writing, thanks.<\/p>\n

— aradhna. (@thebitterbeast) January 17, 2019<\/a><\/p><\/blockquote>\n